● What Have I Become? ●

Things have changed. From what I recall, I am so much different than what I am before. It's difficult. I tried to be better but every time, I fail. I don't like what I see in the mirror. So much pain and sadness lurking deep down inside of me. What have I become is product of the past. I thought being hard would be best for me. Indeed I no longer feel the pain of not receiving love in return however, in the long run, I feel that am the one inflicting the pain - which is worse than the later if I may say. This is not the person I would like to be - the arrogant, insensitive, carefree, hurtful, annoying, unloving person. I want to bring back those times where I can be proud of  saying - "I am better!".

Hard To Forgive But Easier To Forget

Why is it that at times, it would be easier to forget than to forgive? I don't know about you but surely it is for me. Have you ever experienced that somehow, you were angry but for some reason, you can't even seem to recall why you were. It's funny right? Sometimes, I wonder how would it go if it's easier to forgive. I guess, things would be different. 

People say that when you forget, you can easily forgive. I thought it's as easy as to how it has been said but then again, I thought wrong. The pain still lingers and that's something that hinders you to forgive. You hold on to the pain which serves as a reminder not to fall for the same mistakes. 

Not a day goes by that I have thought of forgiving. To forgive is to move on. I hope, one day, I will be able to get the forgiveness that I am yearning for. Maybe then, I can keep you forever.

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.

So, love the people who treat you right and

forget the ones who don't.

And believe that everything happens for a reason...

If you get a chance - take it.

If it changes your life - let it.

Nobody said that it would be easy...

They just promised that it would be worth it.