Where Does Love Go When It Dies?

“If the heart is the place where love comes from, 
then, where does it go when it dies? 
Back to the heart where it came from? 
Or turn into tears in the eyes? 
But even if one knew the answer, 
what would one possibly gain? 
Would the knowledge of where love has gone through 
ease the heartache, the sorrow and the pain? 
Why is it that one cannot quite realize what a blessing this love can be? 
Must one be blind before one can see? 
Where does love go when it leave us? 
This question will always remain, 
for we will never know the answer, 
until we learn to love again.”

~mous~

DEATH

It's quarter to one in the morning and still am wide awake. I don't have a shift tonight. I am a technical support representative working on night shifts and my body is not used to sleep during these hours. I took a cigarette and head out of the house. The night is still and quiet. I lit the cigarette and smoke. 'Am already in a trance when suddenly I heard two loud shots. Hearing the sound of a gun being fired makes my heart skip a beat. Then, three more shots were fired. I jump up from my seat and tried to hide knowing that it's just nearby.

I am worried that the perpetrator might pass my way. I tried to listen as my heart beats faster and faster. My mom was awaken and head out to the door. She bumped the door at me and asked if those were firecrackers. I told her that I am not sure but I am guessing that those were gunshots. My mom asked me to move so she can pass through but I told her not to come out. I asked her to close the door because the light coming from the house may have attract someone who will pass by. Still, silence in the area. I tried to listen as hard as I could and heard someone shouting, crying. I wasn't able to hear the exact words but she is asking if the person that was shot could hear her. And then, another vague silence.

Two medium built men walked pass us from the opposite direction. They were drunk and singing as they pass by. I am waiting and hoping that they will give me a hint of what have happened but it looks like they did not notice. From the opposite direction, another batch of men walking and talking. Again, I have waited hoping that some commotion would arise but again, silence. I am thinking, what on earth could have happened and if those were gunshots, who was killed? Then again, I heard the woman crying.

Finally, some of the neighbors came out of their houses. My mom, feeling that it's now safe to come out, pushed the door towards me. (My, oh, my! My mom with her ever curiosity.) I step aside giving her space to come out of the house. And me being the ever protective being, I asked her not to go near. She ignored me and pushed the gates open. I sashayed to where she is and there half a block lies that man.

The man that was shot and eventually killed was surrounded by very inquisitive people. You can hear them gossip about what have happened. After a while, I heard the siren of the cops' car or mobile. The "SOCO" came to take pictures of the victim as well as the surroundings. Checking every angle hoping that it would give them answers as to why this man is lying on the ground.

I go back to the house having my thoughts of what I saw. I then realize, is this how I am reminded of how life is too short? I contemplate on the thought and it sent me shivers through my spine. I recall how I have encountered death's kin. I was disturbed from thinking when I felt a hand holding mine. It was hers - my love. She hugged me until I doze off to sleep.

Photo from uproxx.com, mymultipleincomes.com

IT ISN'T OVER YET.

A footballteam doesnt quit playing just because the other team made the first goal - they keep playing, because the time isn't over yet. - anon

SAD LOVE STORY

I have read an article - (Sad Love Story) and the questions struck me and made me wonder.

» Do you believe in happy endings?

In the first place, is there such thing as happy ending? If something beautiful such as love or life happened and it ended, would you consider laughing or being joyful? Happy endings only happen in movies and fairy tales. An imaginative thought making us hope that somewhere along between the fiction and reality, there's HAPPINESS even if it ended - how ironic? In this life that we exist, I don't believe in endings not unless you're already with the "creator". Everyday, we wake up. Go through our daily routine. Escape and have pauses. But we don't stop. Our stories don't even end. 

» Why are people always against a sad love story?

The word against is such a strong word. Like would be appropriate perhaps. I think no one would like a sad love story. But no matter how much we unlike the thought, there's no way for us to avoid it. Still, it does exist. 

» Why do they not embrace it as much as when they fall in love?

When falling in love, it gives you so much happiness that sometimes, you could not even describe. It brings butterflies in your stomach and all that. Having these wonderful feelings, there's not much that you can do than to embrace 'em. I may have agreed that most often than not, we do not embrace sad love stories as much as when we fall in love but though, we acknowledge them. 

-"When you learn to accept the GOOD and BAD sides about falling in love, you will no longer have to worry about crossing the path of a sad love story's ending. Because in this way, you have accepted the reality and the possibilities of life that will always be lurking around you anytime".

»Amber L«

+http://blogsoflove.com/+

Worst Thing That You Can Do After a Break-up!

I've heard on the radio a while ago saying that the worst thing that you can do after a break-up is to be friends with your "EX". The anchor said that it's a little bit of suicide for the fact that you still keep on hurting yourself without realizing you do. She also stated that every time you stalk your "EX", the memories of what could have been lingers. You keep on checking his/her Facebook statuses and those number of likes or comments that he/she have posted on some other cute boys/girls silly posts. You still try to text or call hoping that something may have happened that could turn the events to something better. Wake-up! she said. It's not as if it's the end of the world. You could have the best things in life ahead of you. I know it's not as easy as you think it is but MOVE ON! (and the first step is not to be friends with your "EX", not until you can tell yourself that life goes on without him/her). ;)

#liteROCK

After Breakup between two Lovers,

Someone asked the Girl - 

"You left him Or he left you?"

She smiled and said, 

"Love left us".

▲One More Month ▲

Oh my! I never realized that days keep on passing by without me getting ahead of it.

I have so many things that I wanted to do. So many plans to make. I wanted to have that day so special - for the most special person in my life. 

I promise. I will put my best in giving YOU our FIRST ANNIVERSARY memorable. I can't wait..

#excited #love #anniversaryPrep

○ JUST A KISS ○

Lady Antebellum

Lyin' here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
Caught up in this moment
Caught up in your smile I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this
Let's just take it slow Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight I know that if we give this a little time
It'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It's never felt so real, no it's never felt so right Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight No I don't want to say goodnight
I know it's time to leave, but you'll be in my dreams Tonight
Tonight
Tonight Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, oh, let's do this right, with just a kiss goodnight
With a kiss goodnight
Kiss goodnight

#justakiss #ladyantebellum #missingXoxO

» WHAT YOU WANT TO BE «

“When we are children we seldom think of the future.
This innocence leaves us free to enjoy ourselves as few adults can.
The day we fret about the future is the day we leave our childhood behind.”
― Patrick Rothfuss, The Name of the Wind

“I'm choosing happiness over suffering, I know I am.
I'm making space for the unknown future
to fill up my life with yet-to-come surprises.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

“You can build a future out of anything.
A scrap, a flicker.
The desire to go forward, slowly, one foot at a time.”
― Lauren Oliver, Pandemonium

MAKES ME THINK..

It's been months that I haven't written anything worth reading.  Not just because I don't have the time but it's more of  I can't find a good thought.  When you write something, you try to make the words fit just like how you try to put your dress on. We hope to pour our hearts out just like how we do when we try to create a song.  I want to create an inspiration and so I write again.

Let me start by telling you a love story. It all started out when everything is not falling into its right places. It's been hard what to do, when to start, where to go, how to begin, who do we share our life with. We all have plans, don't we? But those questions of what, when, where, how or who, we hardly have an idea. I don't know about you but to me, it's a labyrinth.

Months and months, I have tried avoiding these questions. I'd rather go on and live life as if it is my last. I go out, meet friends, play, eat, watch movies, bond with family, laugh and laugh more. I tried not to be alone because I hate the boredomness. I don't wanna shed tears because " love" had bid farewell. And so, I kept on doing things that make me happy and then - I discover.

I discovered that not relying your happiness to anyone would really make you happy. (Well, happiness comes in different packages, don't they?) But to me, I felt so much happiness. It felt like I have gained strength - the strength to overcome the fear of loss. Now I understand that everything is temporary. And that, we really cannot hold onto something. They said that each person that comes into your life has a purpose. It's either they teach you something, take something from you, or you teaching them something. When their purpose were done, they need to go. As simple as that. Hep.. hep.. I know you would contest. It's not really as simple as how we write things but if you have overcome the situation, you would say that - as simple as that!

So much for the blah.. blah.. and now comes a new beginning. When one door closes, another door will definitely open. If not, a window perhaps. You just have to know the difference. ;) hahaha.. After all those "happy-go-lucky" thingy, we need to go back to reality. We really cannot ignore it. Life works in such a splendid way. (Just like how "love" moves in mysterious ways.) 10 months ago, it all started how I fall in love once again. At first, I deny. I got scared having to go through all the pain once again. I thought I can't bear it if it would happen again and so I ignore. Who could have thought that no matter how we avoid it, as I have mentioned, "love" moves in mysterious ways. hahaha..

Now, the happiness that I have before when am just me was doubled. I can't thank God enough for  blessing me with a wonderful person who accepts me for who I am. Someone who understands me in my craziest, dumbest decisions. My special someone who stays with me through thick and thin. I know it's early to say these things but I have a feeling - I found the SOUL MATE that I have been looking for.

“I’m pretty sure that whoever you want to impress will appreciate you just the way you are.  I know I do.” - le love


Gladys, 

I know I have never showed you how much I really love you but, I want you to know that deep in my heart I do. I will never give up and I promise that I will always stick around. Happy 10th Month. Am prayin' to have more than just years with you but until God permits. Thank you so much for everything. You are an angel sent from above. Again, I love you..

-x10.04.2012x-

TO LEAVE OR TO STAY?

Oh come on. Do I consider changing environment?

Whatever. 

#drag me to work.